Due Date

    Today was supposed to be my 40 week due date with our Maybel, but instead it was her burial. I glad that we just had close family there, and Gerald and I were able to bring some things to lay in her casket. We brought her a doll that says forever sisters love Sybil, and we have one for Sybil that says the same thing but love Maybel(the tags were tied on with the ribbon I had wrapped around my wedding bouquet). We brought a family picture of us with Sybil, and us with Maybel, a card from Gerald and a card from myself that we wrote to Maybel, and finally four daffodils (Maybel's March flower) that each represented a member of our family...also totally cool God moment as a few days before her funeral Gerald had looked outside and found that there was a small patch of yellow daffodils on our property...and we don't really have any flowers on the property! Sybil also got to wear the matching outfit that her sister was buried in.

    Andrew Trezona did the service for our wedding, and today he did the service for our little girl. It was just perfect, and really a testimony of the Gospel as well as an honorable way to express the life of our darling Maybel Peace .

    It was so hard having this be the first and only time Sybil will get to meet her baby sister this side of earth, and really hard for us to say our last goodbyes this side of earth. Through all of this the Lord has been holding us in His hands, the prayers and support from all of you have been so encouraging, and doing all of this with a spouse that I know will always be here and will always love me, and I in turn will do the same is such a comforting place to rest as we walk hand in hand with the Lord together .

    We have pictures from today, and the recordings of the cards we read and laid with Maybel today, but we will get the video recording of the actual funeral probably posted tomorrow for those who were not able to come.

    One of the last things Gerald and I said to each other as we were holding hands over our darling girl's sealed casket was "I see you." This is something I have told Gerald even before Maybel died. I told him that there is comfort when people in our culture say "I am sorry for your loss" because that is how we offer encouragement and condolences, but I have told him that I like to say to people "I see you." Meaning I see you in the hurt, beyond what I see I am here for you, and even when I don't understand I can be there quietly in the pain. It was a sweet way to remember that in the pain when we don't know what to say or how to feel that we see beyond the pain and onto the one we love, and that ultimately Christ sees and knows every aspect of the hurt and will see us through every day and every year that goes past and our little Maybel Peace is no longer in our arms.

Thank you guys for all of your love!

(Date March 20th. 2021)